You may not feel that you have much power in determining your own fate.
Your efforts to make something grand happen have all failed, so far. You
may not feel that you have the connections or the savvy to be able to make
a dream come true, but all it will take is a bit of ingenuity. Just like a
small boulder falling in the right place can launch an avalanche, you can
launch a dream with some strategic thinking - and that's one of your gifts.
You are closer than you think, Moonchild - find a way to make it happen.