We all have bad days when we wonder what's real and what's not.
I think it's the nature of relationships.
They shift constantly;
they change shape even minute to minute sometimes.
It's hard to know what's real in any moment,
unless it's right in front of you and you're experiencing it.
The true is, we only see the tip of the iceberg with anyone.
We see what people want us to see,
but that doesn't mean there wasn't something else underneath.
I am like... falling into a cesspool.
No matter how hard I claw and scratch and fight to swim out of,
I still never get to the top.
That's why I'm pretty used to things not turning out the way I expect and making
the best of it.
:-/