Good evening!
I would like to talk about my birth for your reference.
From my childhood, I was always the model student and I won a lot of
prizes as the 1st or the 3rd.
I won a lot of honor and glory for my parents.
I performed very well from my childhood to my adult.
I can draw, painting, writing, bi-lingual, playing basketball and piano.
My teachers always give me praise that I am smart, very smart.
My parents are from the lower class.
My father was a taxi driver.
My mother graduated from elementary school, but it seems that she never
studied before.
(Just tell you the truth. No comments.)
When I talk to my parents(I tried several times), they don't know what I am
talking about.
They believe that I am a child and don't know anything.
They don't know that I have been a grown up.
My thinking and my logic is more complicated than theirs.
They don't know what I am thinking.
Dr. Cheng is the one that does know what I am thinking.
But my master's degree was dropped out due to Dr. Cheng.
My parents was very angry about my studying in law.
They think that being a lawyer is unconscionable and being a lawyer will
dismiss my parents. (六親不認)
I want someone that does know me.
I need someone that can talk to me.
I need someone that is able to speak with me at the same level.
Actually when I was a senior in college, I was met with a lot of people
that came to see me.
There were a lot of Benz and black cars that run around me.
I don't know whom they are.
But it must be the problem of my identity.
When I was a 8-month baby, I was having a surgery in the hospital.
Maybe they carry the wrong baby.
My psychiatrist said that it was wrong at the first beginning.
I might be "Non Alive" in the world.
That's why a lot of people look down upon me.
Because they think that I should die when I was a baby.
However, I live shamefully.(忝不知恥活著)
I love Seven and Cosmo because they are belonging to the high class.
They can understand what I would like to express.
I don't need to conceal myself.
Freed...........................................
So, don't you know what I feel?
My logic is a little complicated.
I need someone that can talk to me.
I think very much every day.
Seven and Cosmo are very clever, smart and decent.
That's why I court them indeed.
Thank you & Happy Chinese New Year!