https://www.facebook.com/Krepo.LoL/posts/756171434455091
I will no longer be part of Evil Geniuses and will be a free agent from now on.
You can find more info in the long text below.
我不再屬於EG 並且現在開始成為自由選手
Hey guys just got back from worlds, it was an amazing experience. There were tons
of fans out there both watching online and in the venues. Standing there
in the middle of the Sangam Stadium looking around and seeing about 40 000 people
going absolutely nuts made me realise i made the right decision dropping out
of college (KIDS STAY IN SCHOOL). During the trip i got to know the production side
even more and they truely are a bunch of experienced and fun people to hang around.
Ranging from casters to producers to crazy stage managers. It was a blast but at the
same time i'm so happy to be home again.
Hey大家，我剛從世界大賽回來，真的是個很棒的經驗。數以萬計的粉絲在現場和線上收看。
站在被四萬名觀眾圍繞的體育場內，讓我確定我當初輟學是正確的選擇(孩子，留在校園裡)
這段旅程讓我更加了解幕後的工作。從賽評主播、製作群到瘋狂的舞台經理們，幕後人員
都非常有經驗同時相處起來非常有趣。對我來說真是一大震撼，同時我也非常高興終於可以回家了。
Now to get on point, I just wanted to add some context to the tweet that went out.
It announced Me & Evil Geniuses parting ways. First of all i have a lot of respect
for Evil Geniuses as an organisation, they've always treated me well both in taking care
of me as well as paying me a fair wage and I respect that a lot.
在這裡我想對宣布我與EG分開的推文做些補充。首先我對EG這個組織充滿敬意，
他們總是待我良好，包括對我良好的照顧及薪資。
However there were some things that ended up going suboptimal that lead to this decision
being taken. Let me remind you that there are 3 sides to every story, mine, theirs and
the truth somewhere in between. But I just wanted to share my side of things.
有些事情的發生導致了現在這個次佳的決定產生。
當然，所有是都有三個面向；我的說法、他們的說法、及這之間存在的一些事實。
在這裡，我希望說說我的故事。
So where we begin. I guess at the start? Perhaps at the start of last year? After not making
it worlds the old CLG.EU line-up broke up and was left in shambles, Froggen wanted to his own
thing and the rest of us weren't sure as to what to do. Evil Geniuses offered to provide
sponsorship/branding to a team owned by Brian Cordry in the states, a team we
( Stephen, Yellowpete & Me) would end up joining. Now in e-sports you have to make many
tricky decisions, and this was one of them. To this day I don't really know if I made the
right choice. Part of me feels I joined that line-up in an effort to stay "relevant" rather to win.
Part of me knew that the line-up wasn't gonna make it to worlds, but we could try, right?
I don't know. Should I have stayed free agent? All i know is going into next year it'll be 100%
to win, or not at all.
去年初，老CLG.EU沒打進世界賽時，隊伍分崩離析。
Froggen想要搞自己的隊伍，而其他人還不知何去何從。
EG提供了冠名/讚助給Brian Cordry在美國的戰隊，也就是我、Yellowpete、Snoopeh後來的隊伍。
在電競裡總是要做一些難以取捨的決定，加入EG便是其中之一。
直至今日我依然不確定這是否為一個正確的決定。
一部分的我覺得加入是為了與前隊友在一起而非獲勝。
另一部分我知道這個隊伍打不進世界賽，但我們還是可以試試看。
我應該繼續當自由選手嗎?我現在只知道明年要有100%投入去獲勝，不然不如作罷。
We had a rough first split and the spark between me & pete slowly died down so we ended up
replacing him with Altec. Johnny is quite possibly the biggest rough talent out there.
I'm confident he'll be the best ADC in NA one day. However he has some hurdles to overcome
before that.
我們第一段打得非常艱難，我和PETE間的矛盾也慢慢浮現，最後我們用Altec取代了他。
Altec大概是隊上的一塊璞玉，我有信心他會成為北美最強的AD選手，但是他仍有著問題去克服。
I don't wanna dwell too much on the first split and just talk a bit about the second split.
The scouting/replacing process was far too long and we barely even had practice with Johnny
as the ADC (evidence is delayed paperwork forcing Pete to play a last "goodbye" match.)
So we started the split on a false note. And I think that was the prelude to a lot of
avoidable troubles.
第一賽段我不想說太多，應該多說一些第二賽段。
整個找人換人的過程拖了太久，我們幾乎沒有跟altec團練到。
(證據就是換人的手續很晚才辦妥，Pete還不得已多打了一場"告別賽")
這個賽段我們從起跑就有問題，這就是之後很多可避免問題的前因。
In no way is this blog/vlog meant to single out persons but there were just
so many things that could have went different. Our team owner Brian Cordry is an incredibly
nice guy with his heart in the right place and a passion for e-sports. However he just
didn't have what it takes to be a manager when it came to maintaining a healthy social
atmosphere or guiding a competitive e-sports roster. He's incredibly talented at organising
scrims/taking care of groceries or making sure the house stayed tidy, for that I would
like to commend him. But for every area he excelled he was too inexperienced in others
and it lead to an incredibly unhealthy and at times depressing in-house environment.
寫這篇文不是特別要來抓戰犯，但是很多發生的事可以有不同的結果。
隊伍老闆Brian Cordry是個非常棒的人，對於電競有非常大的熱忱。
但是身為戰隊經理這個角色他沒有能力營造一個好的氣氛和開導選手。
對於約團練、後勤他非常有一套，這點上我需要表揚他。
但是在其他方面他就顯得經驗不足，導致整個隊伍的氣氛非常不健康。
From my experience, managing a competitive 5 man team-game is like defusing a bomb.
Wrong moves can only make it worse. We tried to not let shine through but it did affect us all.
Because of the late switch, Pete still ended up living in the house (as well as Stephen later),
and both ended up doing so for pretty much the entire split, in their own rooms forcing
starters to share rooms (or in Altecs case, sleep at the bottom of a stairwell in the open
entry area for about 2 months).
以我對管理五人戰隊的經驗來說，那就像是拆炸彈一樣。
走錯一步就會讓情況更糟。我們試著讓事情過去，但他就是影響到了大家。
因為換人的時機晚，pete依然跟我們住在一起(爾後snoopeh也是)，
他們有個人房間大概持續了整個賽段。這使得房間不足，其他選手必須分享房間。
(或是像altec一樣睡在樓梯底下的開放空間將近兩個月)
(譯註：harry potter，是你?)
With Stephen gone, I tried to step as a leader for the team as well as trying my hardest on
support. It's incredibly hard to combine leadership and playing at the highest level cause
you're constantly trying to help others solve their problems. Mainly in communication.
A lot of our scrims would start of by me asking "Hey guys what're we doing, what's the plan?"
Hoping for a response. And this is where I feel the younger players can improve, and
i've told them so and I really hope they take the advice.
snoopeh走了之後，我試著站出來領導隊伍，同時把輔助位打好。
同時要帶領隊伍又要打出職業等級的操作非常困難。
因為你一直在解決其他人的問題，大多是溝通問題。
很多團練的開始都是我再問大家，我們現在要做什麼?計劃是什麼?期待得到回應
這也是我認為年輕選手可以進步的地方，我告訴過他們也希望他們聽得下建議。
It's really disrespectful to be watching Anime/on skype/not paying attention while
there's someone trying to improve the team atmosphere and communication.
It's impossible to lead if you don't have the respect from the people you're trying to help,
and there I failed. I don't think i've ever had the full respect from the team, and then
what's the point. I'm not perfect, I had bad weeks, bad streaks, some personal shit to deal with,
but I tried.
當有人在試圖改善團隊氣氛及溝通的同時，看動畫、SKYPE、和不放在心上是非常不尊重的行為。
當得不到我試圖幫助人的尊重，根本就不可能領導這支隊伍，所以我失敗了。
我覺得我從未獲得整個隊伍的尊重，顯得毫無意義。
我並不完美，我有表現壞的時候，也有自身的問題要處理。
但我試過了
But then when a teammate tells you " Yo it feels like these scrims are 2v5 this entire week"
or I have to ask Altec if he remembers when the last time was he asked me to play duoQ, only
to be met with " Uhm, I don't know". Well I knew, it was well over 2 months.
I don't even recall him telling me "good job" in any of those last 3 months in-game.
That's when you know you're no longer a team but just some guys playing together till the
season is over.
但是，當你聽到隊友跟你講，這禮拜的團練怎麼都像是二打五。
或是當我問aletc上次我們雙排是何時，只得到：嗯...我不知道。
好，我知道，是兩個月之前
我甚至不記得他在這三個月之內對我說過good job這兩個字。
這時，我開始了解我們不再是隊伍，我們只是剛好一起打電動的人，直到賽季結束。
After every scrim near the end there would be a 10 minute long discussion in Korean between
Pobelter and Helios of which we'd get perhaps a 30 second translation if we'd ask.
There's about 20 other things that went wrong/could've gone better but it's no point d
welling on the past. Point is, the social atmoshpere wasn't healthy and it just wasn't fun anymore.
之後每次團練後，Pobelter和Helios 大概都會用韓文交談十分鐘，
當我們問起了才有三十秒左右的翻譯，大概還有至少20件我們的失誤或是可以做得更好的事吧。
總之，過了就過了
問題在於，整跟氛圍就是不健康也不再有趣了。
Ironically my best performance came when I said "fuck it, I don't care about the team anymore"
and I went in to superweek wanting to prove myself rather than EG. We ended up going 4-0 after
losing every scrim except 3 matches that week.. It was rather surreal.
諷刺的是我最好的表現出線在我說出：吉掰雷，拎北不屌這支隊伍了之後。
整個超級周我都只想證明自己而不是幫助EG
我們在比賽拿了4-0，而且那週之前的團練中只贏了三場其餘皆輸
好不真實
The point is not that i'm trying to point fingers here, but that it had to end.
I don't blame Tyson,Johnny, Eugene or Dong-jin for anything they did or did not do,
they're 17-18. They're more mature than I was at 17 but still have a long way to go,
and that's where management dropped the ball. They should call people out, educate and
make sure the social environment in a team does not become a cess-pool like it did.
Cause you can be as gifted individually as you want, this is a team-game, and it requires
a team to work together and respect eachother, in some way, shape or form.
我不想抓戰犯
我不因為他們的作為去怪四位隊友
他們才都17-18歲，比我那年紀當時成熟的多，都還有很長的路要走。
這也是管理階層不足的地方，他們應該要可以趕人走、教育選手，建立良好的環境，
讓團隊別再成為賽康。
一個人要多有天份都可以，但是這是團隊比賽，需要整個團隊都互相尊重、合作。
So what's next? Honestly I don't know. I'm a free agent now (publically) and i'm looking at
the offers. I want to prove the world that I can still do it. I've found ways to train better,
work on team atmosphere if the team wants to, and am just in a way better spot physically and
mentally lately. At the other side, i'm very fortunate in the fact that I have a career ready
for me after playing. And at one point i'll have to make the jump. What is one year more of
playing gonna offer me? I don't know.
接下來呢?說實話我還真不知道。
我現在是(公開的)自由選手，正在等待邀請。
我想要向世界證明我還可以!
我有更有效的訓練方法，如果隊伍需要我也能幫助團隊氣氛，無論身理或心理都更加強壯。
另一方面，我其實很幸運的已經找到退出選手後的職業規劃
在某天我也必須離開選手生涯。然而在多打一年能帶給我什麼？我也不知道
It'll only be worth it if I get to worlds again. Another year of not making it to worlds
would mean I wasted my time. As for post-player career, i've had a team approach to think
about coaching & there's obviously the caster avenue. Both sound promising, I feel i can add
a lot of extra value to in-game commentary and with my experiences of being in teams
I feel i've learned a lot of things regarding coaching. But playing is still the dream,
I really want to use the experience i've gained over the years and share it as a player
with my team.
我做了這個選擇一定要進了世界賽才顯得有價值。如果沒有我也只是在浪費時間。
目前有隊伍在徵詢我願不願意當教練，同時賽評的工作也是一個選擇。
兩個工作都感覺不錯，我覺得我在賽事播報上有額外的加分，
同時我待過的隊伍讓我學到很多教練的技巧。
但是 我的夢，在打電競。
我希望可以跟隊伍分享我這些年來所得到的經驗。
I have a firstworld problem regarding which job I want in e-sports, I think i'm very
fortunate in that regard but it's still rather tricky. I'll spend the next few days talking
to people about potential offers and meanwhile re-build my mechanics. I might start streaming
somewhere next week again. I've had an offer as a player already but it has to be financially
viable. I'm closing in on 25 next year and at that point I need to think longterm.
I try to have the mentality of seperating people from their E-sports persona's.
I may have had my many differences & regrets with "Guitar", but I still wish Brian Cordry the best. Likewise me & Snoopeh used to argue a lot (for the benefit of the team) but Stephen Ellis is a lifelong friend. I hope other players adopt that mentality as well one day.
I wish my ex-teammates: Pete, Stephen, Tyson, Eugene, Johnny & Dong-jin all the best and
hope they find something that makes them happy.
I'd like to thank Evil Geniuses & their sponsors for their continued support.
Thank you for reading.
在選擇工作上面我有著甜蜜的負擔，我真的很幸運但還是難以抉擇。
接下來幾天我會徵詢各界潛在的合約，同時從新調整個人技術。
也許下周會開實況。
我當下已經收照一份選手邀約，但他必須是經濟上許可的。
明年我就接近二十五歲，必須開始考慮長期發展了。
我試著把每個人與他們在遊戲中展現的樣貌分開。
我跟Cordry有許多歧見及懊悔，但我還是祝福他
我也希望我的前隊友們都好!可以找到讓他們快樂的事情
感謝EG及贊助上的長期支持
感謝大家閱讀