我試著在想當初他那個令我不忍直視的問題
what do you want?
我希望一段關係對彼此是特殊的 有意義的
然後呢
當這個目的已經達成
再見面聯絡維繫關係又是為了什麼
what am I looking for in this relationship with you?
I don't know
so I don't know what to do with you.
I always feel this is temporary, a moment
we're just going to have a moment,
maybe a moment afterwards, and another
but they are only going to be moments after moments.
it never feels real.
never feels like I really matter, or you, or what we have.
I need to detached myself, to be able to get closer to you.
I know we're not meant to be.
but if I'm not looking for someone who's meant to be.
then what am I after?
what is everyone after?
what are the differences between me and other people?

好久不見:) 冬天來了多穿衣

謝謝 好久不見～ 你也是多保重

我正跟你問著相同的問題。X以致於我懷疑我希望建立的似乎不是正常人希望的關係。覺得困惑，更覺得自己已經被消耗光了。最可怕的是我知道那不是我之外任一他人的責任。ㄧ切都終歸自己之後，就無得解了。完滿也完蛋了。

這絕不是正常人的關係(至少我這麼認為)... 無論以什麼形態包裝。

沒能幫上你，不好意思。

蛤 請別這麼覺得 能在類似的地方 互相分享自己的想法 就是很大很大的幫忙～ 因為能有機會看到不同的可能我非常非常感謝你說的這些東西即使一時看來沒有解答我們在問的問題 但是重點在於過程而非答案