My mom said i am truely not myself.
You are always controlled by the medicine the doctor gave to you.
Then, who am I?
Perhaps I'm feeling alive just due to so called "medicine" you said.
Sometimes I get confused.
Maybe I have had no idea about who I am since long time ago.
So called "value" got broken and got crazy.
I told myself dude, even if you got lost in your life,
you still surely have been what you are as it used to be.
You just got too exhausted to escape from the dark you
thought around you at all the time.
But now, I gradually find the meaning.
Mom, I am truely myself.
Though mixed contradiction filled with my brain always exists,
I think i do being stronger.
Sorry that you worry about me inclusive of my wife.
Things gonna get better.
I am shy to say these to you two.
But those are all my feelings and what I wanna dedicate to both of you.
Thanks, my love.