這次預估自己會難過21天
剛剛過第二天 白天還行 但最難熬的卻是夜晚
張開眼睛我能四處走走 打開電腦用影音把思緒塞滿
但一旦閉上眼 妳的畫面就又會不受控的出現
每個畫面 都沉沉的壓在我胸口 近乎窒息
我問自己 後不後悔認識妳
到現在也沒個肯定得答案
妳是那麼美好 惹人疼惜的存在
可對於我來說 似乎總有些我承受不起得代價
早知強求沒有好結果 卻真的很難抗拒
把自己弄得真狼狽
唉

5/19下午道別 現在是5/21早晨 好像又好了那麼一些 但想到最後一日 妳似乎已無心遊玩 急於離開 我又感到些許心酸最近一直聽 許巍 曾經的你 好貼切自己 聽了好多遍shit I am tired of my wishful thinkingI know I have to get stronger instead of stayingupset like a piece of shitI am trying to do something to distract myself, andnotthing really works... The only thing that barelyworks is calling my close friends in Taiwan...But I have been disturbing them a lot, and I believethey began to see me annoyance...I am not a complainer... For most of troubles I havefaced, I can take them, sucked them up. But not thisone...I know you don't have a thing about me, but I am justtoo optmistic to our relationship...I thought as I get better and closer to you as friendI will step out of the friend zone one day...stupid thinking I know can't help cause you areirresistible to me... I deserved it