Exactly to say, until now, I still don't get the point and
not aware of what happened.
I just remember that I fail to own the success serveral times
even though I have working experiences around the world with business trips
to Europe from which I get big deals.
I don't have a clue why I would be getting the "Dark Age" period
which presents that I am cheated and disturbed by the surroundings.
If I blame on myself, things would be easier.
Maybe I should worship the God and try to join the secret Buddhism.
I still don't know the context of the story and how I can excape from
the trap and the vicious circle?
I am bothered and disturbed by the secret reasons.