請了半天生理假，雖然塞了兩顆止痛但還是下不了床，也睡不著，索性來記錄一下最近的
心情吧。
“You look energetic and vibrant these days,” said by a friend met when I was
in my depression period.
Yeh...that is my truly outgoing personalities which have been hidden deeply fo
r sooooo long.
I usually don’t tend to expose my weakness to anyone, including my parents.
They’re even not aware of my depression until I have dropped out the psycho c
ounselings and told them.
Life is hard enough, why bother make it worse?
I have been a very stubborn girl since my childhood, I really am.
Independent, proactive, dependable, warm...which are positive adjectives my fr
iends and colleagues put these expression on me.
No doubt, I try so hard to play a perfect role as a leader, a good friend, a c
oworker, a sister and a daughter.
However, deeply inside my mind, I don’t think I deserve these.
I am a lousy person. There is a transparent boundary which I built to separate
people from walking closely in my heart.
Having no purpose of life, no lover whom I can lean on, no closed friend to sh
are my life and thought, I am living in a sugar-coating hell created by myself
.
How pathetic I am, lol.