※ 引述《GOD5566GOD (o'_'o)》之銘言:
: https://www.facebook.com/ChawyXL/posts/1110021652347319
: Chawy
: 4 分鐘前
: Hi everyone, i'm really sorry but to break this news to you. I have been
: banned from participating in any LoL tournaments for a period of time (not too sure
: how long the ban would be yet), because of an event of elo boosting done
: during March 2014.
: For those who are interested in my part of the story, do continue reading
: below.
大家好,我真的很抱歉得向各位說這個壞消息。
我將被禁止出戰任何的LOL賽事一段時間(還不確定會被BAN多久),
因為2014年3月時我曾經代打過。
有人對我過去的故事有興趣的話,請繼續向下看。
: I have been playing competitive since I was 14. I chose to take this path even
: though its not the smartest choice being born in Singapore, a country where
: E-sports is not as recognized. My passion for gaming and the desire to win
: made me who I am today.
我是從14歲的時候開始打這些競技遊戲的。
而我選擇這條路,即使這對一個新加坡人而言實在不是個明智的選擇──
因為在這個國家,電子競技還沒有被承認。
而我對遊戲的熱情與對勝利的渴望,造就了今天的我。
: I started playing LoL when I was first invited by Riot to take part in 2010
: WCG and ended up getting 3rd place. I switched from DotA / DotA 2 to LoL because
: at that time, LoL had way more tournaments each year, and I really enjoyed
: playing LoL.
我開始打LOL,最初是2010年的WCG上被Riot邀請的,而最後我們得了第三名。
我從DotA/DotA2的世界轉到LOL來,因為在那時候,LOL是每年擁有最多賽事的遊戲,
而我真的非常享受LOL。
: During early 2012 when SGS ( Team Singapore Sentinels ) was formed, they
: started trailing for players on our server. Being in SGS was like a dream come
: true, its the first ever professional team I know of to get paid to play. Many
: people would do anything just to get into that team. Sadly, they didn't chose
: me because I was serving my NS ( National Service ). I was really depressed
: because most would say I was the best player in our region but yet I was not
: picked or even trailed. I didn't gave up then. I starting forming my own team
: with friends I met at Solo Queue. I took part in every tournaments and ended
: up getting 2nd every time, only losing to SGS. But at the same time, we managed
: to take some games off SGS. That was when SGS saw my talent and offered me a
: slot.
在2012年初的時候,SGS(新加坡先鋒)成立了,
他們開始在我們新加坡的伺服器上訓練選手。
加入SGS可以說是圓夢,因為那是我所知的第一支有支薪的職業戰隊。
有很多人擠破了投想要加入這支戰隊,很不幸的是,
他們並沒有選我、因為當時我正在服兵役(National Service)。
我實在非常沮喪,因為很多人說我是我們那邊最強的玩家,
而我居然沒有被選上也沒有被栽培。
我並沒有放棄。我開始跟我在Solo Q時遇到的朋友們組了我自己的隊伍,
我們參加了所有的賽事並且每次都拿第二名──只輸給SGS。
而於此同時,我們還是想方設法地在比賽中幹掉SGS。
也就是在這時候,SGS看中了我的才華,打算邀請我入隊。
: At first I was offered an monthly salary way more than the original 5 members,
: of course I gladly accepted. Luckily for me, after I completed my basic
: training in NS, I was posted to a vocation where I just have to work every 8am
: -5.30pm. I rushed to our training room in Garena office every evening once I'm
: released from camp, train till late night, and then return home, and continue
: training. It was like my dream came true. Little did I know, the management
: told me few days later that I would not be receiving a single cent because of
: their budget. I was shocked, but since I was serving my NS, and we are not
: allowed to have any extra allowance outside of NS, I accepted it. I treated
: playing in SGS not as a job, but as doing something I loved. I wake up every 6
: in the morning, rush to camp, end work at 5.30, rush to Garena, end trainings
: at 10-11pm, rush home, more solo trainings till 2-3am, sleep, repeat. That was
: my daily routine for over a year.
最初我所得到的月薪甚至比元祖的五位隊員還高,而我當然很高興地接受了。
幸運的是,在我完成了基本兵役後,
我被分配到的營區只需要每天早上八點到下午五點去站崗就好。
每天晚上我一出營,我便火速衝到Garena的訓練室,然後狂練到晚上再回家,週而復始。
這就是夢想實現的感覺吧。
(這段不太確定,我不是很熟新加坡的兵役體制)
然後我得知,經理告訴我由於他們的預算,幾天後我一分錢都拿不到。
我嚇到了,可是當時我正在服役,而除了軍中之外我們不被允許以其他管道賺錢。
我接受了,畢竟我沒有把SGS視為工作,而是在做我所熱愛的事情。
我每天早上起床,衝到單位去,下午五點半結束,衝去Garena,
晚上十點到十一點左右結束訓練,衝回家,然後再自己SOLO練習到半夜兩三點,
睡覺,如此重複。
那是我整整一年來的日常。
: Many people thought that hey, Chawy confirm gets way higher pay than his other
: teammates because of his performance, but the truth is, I was NOT paid. I had
: to pay for my own transport, my meals, everything, using the allowance I get
: from NS ( S$400+ a month). I discussed with my teammates and they agreed to
: each pass me S$50 every month which concludes to S$250 per month.
很多人都覺得,「嘿,Chawy肯定因為他的表現所以領了比其他隊友夠高的薪水」,
然而事實上,我根本一毛錢都沒拿。(Chawy用大寫強調,所以幫他上個色)
我要付我自己的交通付、我的餐錢、所有的支出,
都是用我自己在軍中領的零用錢。(每個月約400新加坡幣)※新加坡幣比台幣約1:23
我跟我的隊友們討論,而他們決定每個月救濟我50塊,
因此我每個月可以勉強多拿到250塊的生活費
: So why did I stayed even though I was not paid? Simple, I always dream of
: becoming a pro player, and SGS was the very first step. I was given a lvl 30
: Taiwan server account and I was contented with that. I get to play against
: players like GodJJ, Toyz, Westdoor and so many other really good players.
: Luckily for me, I got top 5 ranks in ranked in Taiwan server multiple times.
: I was given the same monthly pay as the rest of my teammates only after I
: completed my NS, which was after September 2013. It was never easy working the
: hardest, giving the most, performing the best but yet receiving the least.
: Around February 2014, I left SGS. Our team results were not good and I was
: tired. I thought I would never have a chance to play on the main stage ever
: again. That was the time when this 'friend' approached me to boost his
: account.
所以為什麼即便我沒有錢拿、我還願意留下來?
很簡單,因為我一直夢想著成為一位職業選手,而SGS就是我的第一步。
我在台服拿到了一個30等的帳號,這讓我覺得心滿意足。
我開始跟一些像是GODJJ、Toyz、Westdoor和很多真的非常厲害的玩家們交手。
很幸運地,我好幾次高踞在台服RANK的前五名內。
在我退役後,我得到了和其他隊友們一樣的月薪,這時約莫是2013年9月過後。
工作得最努力、付出得最多、表現得最優秀實在不容易,但至少我有薪水了。
然後,大概是2014年2月,我離開了SGS。
我們的隊伍最後的表現並不好,而我也累了。
我想,我將不會再有機會再站上這個舞台了吧。
而就是那時候──「朋友」找我代打。
: Of course I accepted. I had no income, no future, no nothing. I had to earn
: what I can. Even though its just a small amount, I did it.
: It was after that that TPA contacted my then manager, saying they want to
: trail
: me. I was delighted, I saw a glimpsed of hope. After a long discussion with my
: family, I decided to come to TPA.
我理所當然地接受了。我沒有收入,沒有未來──我一無所有了。
我當然得想點法子盡我所能地賺錢。
即使那真的非常微薄,我還是接了。
而在那之後,TPA透過我的經理找上了我,說他們想要邀我加入。
我非常開心,我看見了希望的曙光。
於是,和我家人討論了很久以後,我決定加入TPA。
: The 'friend' whom I elo boosted for, didn't pay me because he said he had no
: money. I didn't mind since I was already in TPA having a stable income, but a
: tragedy striked during late 2014. My investment with my brother failed badly
: costing me to lose around S$10,000. ( I had quite a bit of winnings from DotA/
: DotA2 ). It was then I started going around collecting money from people I
: lent to, and from that 'friend' I 'worked' for. But he ignored me, not wanting to
: return me, and even telling me it was a long time ago, he doesn't even play
: league now. I was mad, I kept pestering him and I guess I made him mad. So mad
: that this 'friend' reported to Riot and Garena that I elo boosted.
那個請我幫他代打的「朋友」,壓根兒沒付我半毛錢──他說他也沒錢。
我不在乎,因為那時我已經加入了TPA,有了固定的薪水,
但很悲劇的是在2014年後期,我跟我兄弟一起做的投資失敗,
而我大概損失了一萬多塊新加坡幣。(大概是我從DotA/DotA2以來贏得的所有獎金)
然後我開始想盡辦法從所有我借得到的朋友手邊籌錢,
包括和那位我曾經「為他工作」的「朋友」。
可是他無視我,不想付錢給我,
甚至還跟我說「那是很久以前的事了耶」,他現在根本已經沒有在打LOL了。
我簡直抓狂了,我不停地糾纏他,而我猜我大概也惹毛他了。
以致他同樣抓狂地想Riot跟Garena檢舉我曾經代打。
: I had come a long way in my career, and I would say this year is my peak. Even
: though TPA results are not as good anymore, but I kept improving and
: improving ,hoping to show the world what i'm capable of.
: Just as we're preparing for World Championship 2015 qualifiers, THIS had to
: happen. I was left speechless, and heart broken.
: Never had I thought this would happen to me, and that my career:
: would end this close.
從踏上職業生涯以來,我已經走了很長一段路,
而我必須說,這一年就是我的顛峰了。
儘管我TPA的表現也許一點也不好,但我是真的很努力很努力地在變強,
希望能夠讓世界看見我的本事。
而在我們正為2015年世界賽資格備戰時,這件事發生了,
我無話可說,整顆心都碎了。
我從未想過這件事會發生在我身上,而今──我的職業生涯將劃上休止符。
: I'm sorry for disappointing everyone supporting me out there all these time.
: I'm even more sorry for letting my team down, including my managers, coach,
: and translator. I never expect this to happen and I'm the same, or even more
: disappointed than anyone else is.
: Sorry.
我很抱歉,讓這段時日以來一直支持著我的人們失望了。
我更必須為我讓我的隊伍失望而道歉,包括經理、教練與翻譯。
我從未期望這件事發生,而我同樣、甚至比任何人都來得更加失望。
對不起。